No ScarJo??

Yes. When asked by the recovery nurses if I had any visitors coming my response was Scarlett Johanssen. Maybe she forgot. Apparently when told I had a private semi room I asked if they had my Foxwoods diamond card lmfao!

So let's try and catch up a little here.

MSK was amazing. The nurses and doctors treated us so well and made me feel well taking care of. I was basically on a floor with all colorectal cancer patients who had surgery so it was nice to meet some people and share stories and experiences. Def could have been worse.

Surgery was a bit over 3 hours and they successful removed a large section of my bowel , my appendix, and tumors/parts of my mesentery. This last part is great as it was unclear what they were going to get. This leaves me with just the large tumor burden in my liver and small net on my iliac bone. The entire surgery was done robotically so I have a c section scar and 5 other small holes. They are all stiched/glued up and I don't have to do anything but keep them clean and not submerge for a month. Recovery was/has been quite a bit harder than I expected. The first night in hospital was particularly shit. Was throwing up and miserable. Not fun using all your stomach muscles to puke when they were all cut and had machines and what not through them. Also, had a catheter for a lot longer than I expected. Eww. More people saw my twig and berries last week then all of my high school years and that's saying a lot! I was released Saturday afternoon and have been home on the mend since. No real pain meds or anything so double edge sword. I won't have bowel issues from taking opioids but I also hurt constantly. Eating what i want slowly and trying to relax but also move as much as I can. My stomach hurts constantly from procedure and I think just the nature of what's gone on. Mentally, I'm still processings the last 2 years of my life and all that's transpired. I can't believe I just had "cancer surgery" on top of all my Moto shit. I promise to focus on my mental stuff in the near future as I think it's something I can't ignore or just power through like I have with everything else in my life. I already needed to heal my mind after the crash in 2021 so the pile is heaping at this point.

Ok, so doctors are great, hospital great etc. the real hero's here have been my family. For fucks sake if you all knew what Dayna's life is like on the norm and what she had to do to be there for me through this.... she must have summoned the powers of sweet baby Lucifer lol. I mean it. I had to force her to leave and get rest. She's my rock and although she's is sick herself forever she still somehow takes care of me always. Yes sometimes more than she needs to lol. It's easier to let her than argue with the idiot. My sister also stayed with Dayna for days so she wasn't alone. This means more to me then she knows. Love you, you emotional beast you :). My mom would have slept in my bed if I let her I'm sure, but I really wanted to keep everyone away during this. My brother, Joe and even t Obrien showed up out of nowhere! I thought I was hallucinating! Again, no scarjo meh. The love and support from all my friends and fam has been incredible and I'm sorry I haven't responded or called you all back. I'm tired, I hurt, and I'm so fucking over talking about this shit.

I think this is enough for now. Even typing this has me tried and emotional (the latter is not something I'm used to). I will keep you all informed. I really want to go to the office in a few days and knock some shit out. I can't drive for 2 weeks (holy shit car ride home suuuccckeed) but will find a way. Feel like the distraction will be good.

Oh!! Already down 10lbs in 5 days. So what if half of it was tumor! It counts,... ;) I coud def stand to lose more.

Later!